Dinner Time

Wednesday, April 20, 2022. 
Heard Angelina call me to dinner twice. The messages were spread over a few minutes. Upon reacting by going to the living/dining area, I learned that Angelina wasn’t home and no dinner was prepared in any way.
I find that my hallucinations and delusions are most prominently of a paranoid nature, though their influence is less easily appreciated in my ongoing life experience. For example, I frequently “catch” myself questioning seemingly innocuous phenomena and characterizing them as threatening rather than unremarkable and easily dismissed.
Similarly, I see people in a bifurcated way, either all good or sinisterly questionable. It’s a burden to deal continually with inordinate levels of distrust and uncertainty this problem brings about. In truth I largely resent a good deal of humanity, whom I see as undeserving and unappreciative of what they have.



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