Core Dump
This is a transcription from a handwritten journal. I have since entered my thoughts and experiences in this blog. I am unloading various comments for which there is no order. Just comments in whatever chronological order they were originally logged in. I plan to record in this journal recollections and experiences on a day to day basis (with obvious flashbacks of things past). I’m currently (2019) being treated with an antidepressant (Zoloft) two mood stabilizers (Lamictal and Depakote) and Risperdal, an antipsychotic. I am bothered by frequent hallucinations, delusions (mostly paranoid) and various negative symptoms, such as avolition and poor hygiene. I have to date encountered bouts of suicidal depression, to the extent that I have seriously attempted suicide, with full intent of succeeding, on three occasions. The third such attempt got Me committed on a 72-hour hold. Nothing more, since I was able to convince the resident psychiatrist that it was only an attempt to get...